4.17.2010

Culpable

I whine a LOT about guys who flirt with girls while they have girlfriends. I'm a big stickler for fidelity. But last night I came up against some weird sort of line and I'm pretty sure I didn't play it right.

There's this guy that I've been sort of backburner-interested in - backburner because he has a girlfriend. Now, said girlfriend is long-distance normally anyway (as in the Midwest) and she's abroad this semester to add to it. And I've never really thought that he was interested in me as more than friends. But I go over to his place once in a while to hang/veg, and recently we've started getting closer and closer to cuddling. And last night we definitely cuddled, no question about it. Chalk it up to lack of sleep, a glass of wine, rambunctiousness, etc... but we were sort of all over each other with the spooning and whatnot.

Now, I'M not the one with the significant other. I've only met her once and feel no real loyalty to her (not even facebook-friends), but I feel a little skeezy. He'll probably come over here again in the near future, and it'll probably happen again, and I like him and enjoyed it - but I believe in my heart that if he had tried to kiss me I WOULD HAVE STOPPED IT. But I want him. But he has a girlfriend.

Why are there no good, single, straight guys out there right now? Only 29 days until I get out of here...

1 comment:

Liz Koehler said...

Now this is really scandalous. I feel like it's not worth being a part of the downfall of their relationship if it's just a back burner thing for you and you're moving soon anyway. Let him ruin it without you. You're better than that! If it was someone you really liked and you were going to be around and could talk about it, that would be different. For now, I think you need a new cuddle buddy.