I really hope that someday I can finally become who I want to be. I worry a lot that it's taking too long for me to get started with my career, especially with unemployment dragged out longer than I expected. I'm viewing the move to New York as an opportunity to finally find a job in my field (who the heck has the money to hold events in this podunk state right now?), but I also know that that job is not going to happen right away. Event planning is a career that requires a certain familiarity with the area in which one works, and learning a big city is going to take time. I hear you're not considered a New Yorker until you've spent 7 years there - not that it should take that long to find a job, clearly, but still.
At almost-24, I feel like I should have my life more figured out than I do currently. All I've got right now is a diploma (which means not-much in a recession, as it's turning out), one post-graduation job that ended when the whole company went under, and a fairly good sense of what I do and don't want in a relationship. 3 years ago (HAS IT BEEN THAT LONG??) I was planning to be married and potentially trying for a baby by this point in my life. (Sweet lord jesus, I am so glad that didn't happen.)
I'm not looking for a man at this point in my life, mostly because I'm leaving in just a couple months. My focus is on my working life now, but I really wish there were a way to get the ball rolling faster. What company is going to look at my resume and think, "Wow, she lives 500 miles away and hasn't had a real job since June, let's call HER in!"? Also not helping in the search is the fact that I don't really know WHAT to look for in a first job. Like I said, eventually I want to be in event planning, but in the meantime, I'd rather not be just a secretary/ "administrative assistant" - I want to do something interesting, maybe in the publishing world. Who even knows.
Urgh. Sorry about all the whining and complaining. This is not living boldly. Bleh. Maybe once the hangover is gone I'll feel more optimistic.
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