LonelyGirl15

My recent bout of mood swings is really starting to freak me out. I've been a pretty stable person, emotionally, for a long time; only major events could trigger a fit of depression, and even then I bounced back relatively quickly. But ever since moving here, I'm more prone to this depression and loneliness that I have never felt before. In such a big, crowded city, I feel totally alone sometimes - and that's because I am alone. The friends I so adored and was adored by have all been left behind, and I am stuck at this office for just 4 more days with no view of the outside world, just waiting for my time to tick to a close here.

Our generation was raised to believe that all hard work and good behaviour is rewarded, that if we make good grades and work a series of menial part-time jobs, we will graduate and be handed a job that will eventually give rise to a series of promotions and then give rise to a career where we are happy and fulfilled. We were taught that if we were friendly and good people, we would find someone in college to fall in love with and get married to and have 2.7 children and a dog and and live happily ever after.

Apparently, we have been lied to. Or at least I have. 2+ years after graduating, I am still temping and single. My best friend just graduated and is so in love and has a fantastic job with room for advancement in her dream career. What the fuck happened to me? What did I do? Dear world: I am ready for my life to BEGIN ALREADY! What's taking you so long??

Blerg. Ignore me, people. Yesterday was a good day. Today is not a good day. I think the answer here is that this company wasn't a good fit for me after all, and it really is a good thing that I'm leaving on Friday.