Older and Wiser

Occasionally I'll scroll through the facebook profile or twitter account or whatever of an ex-boyfriend or former crush. Not in any sort of spy-on-you way - my time for that has passed - but just to generally check in on what they're up to, how they're doing, etc. I find it odd, however, that for the most part, I look at these profiles and think to myself, I know what I saw in them, but for the life of me I can't see it now. I find this completely perplexing. Weren't we all supposed to get older and wiser and start making good choices about those upon whom we bestowed our affections? Out of all of the guys I've dated or crushed on - and I am boy crazy, let me assure you - there are only one or two, maybe, that ended so well that I can be proud of the time I spent with him.

Age takes its toll, of course, and some of these guys just got old and fat. But mostly it's about personality. I just don't understand why I liked them. Strange, right? It makes me nervous for the future... The thing that scares me the most in life is not "never being in love," as so many people say is their worst fear, but falling out of love. But I guess the common wisdom is that all relationships fail, until one doesn't. I hate that uncertainty.