Wedding Recap part 1 - the aftermath

Something I've always struggled with is being authentic when a hot guy is around. I don't know why it is - maybe it's in response to my insecurity about my looks - but if I'm around someone I'm attracted to, I can tend to be very conscious of my behavior and not let go and be goofy or say what's on my mind for fear that he'll lose interest (even if he was never "interested" in the first place).

I just realized, though, that I completely let go and had a good time and was able to be myself around Mr Wedding Date. It's very easy to be myself around him, probably because he laughs at - no kidding - 95% of my jokes (!!!). Maybe it's a clue that I'm not romantically interested in him (while he's hot as hell, I can't really see us ever actually dating just due to distance and what the girls he usually dates look like), or maybe it's something deeper, and I'm finally getting to a place where I'm so comfortable in my own self that I just don't CARE if a guy doesn't like what he sees/hears. I'm totally insane, and I realize this, and if a guy doesn't like it, he can suck it. It'd be nice to be Inflatable Girl, who every guy takes one look at and falls in love with, but "with great hotness comes great crazy" (Hot Girl Theorem). I'm actually fun to be around, and not cuckoo or maladjusted, and I know I'm a great catch. If a guy doesn't see that right away... too bad, I suppose.

But either way, it's nice to have a hot guy friend that I can really be myself with.

There's a lot more to say about the wedding, but I have errands to run with Mr Wedding Date before he leaves, and literally 7 days of unwatched shows saved that I need to watch TODAY before the new episodes start taping and eating all the space on the DVR. So I'll talk to you all soon (and I'll fix the podcast, Liz, don't worry)!